Two years ago.
I was recently graduated from college and about a month into my first full-time,"grown up" job. I had student loans looming and a heart pining to be anywhere but where I was...mostly for Portugal. I remembering feeling (and often complaining) that I was in an awkward limbo place life--finished with one chapter, but not allowed to move on to the next.
Two years later, I must say...I was wrong. Lots of life happened during this so-called limbo time. By the grace of God, my student loans were paid off. I learned a little about designing and coding and a lot about what kind of work environment I want (or don't want) to work in. I met some new friends and became closer to others. One in particular being my self-appointed "BFF"(a story worth sharing...someday) who has truly become my best friend. I started a different job and was given the honor of helping out two non-profits run by people near and dear to my heart. I became an aunt to another niece and found out that there will be three more lovies coming this Spring. There's so much more that's happened, but the point is...the past two years have not been empty. They have not been simply for waiting, although there was definitely some waiting...but isn't there always?
Sometimes there are clear beginnings and ends to the chapters in your life, but I'm finding that more often than that, you're in the middle of the next chapter before you even realize it's begun. I've got a couple of practical New Years resolutions written down (in a list with checkboxes) but I think that one thing I really want to focus on is the NOW. I can get so carried away with planning and thinking about the future or longing for what used to be that I dismiss the life space I'm in now as insignificant. It's not until I take the time to pause and look around that I can see how very significant now is.
I realize this epiphany of mine is neither original nor deeply profound, but I hope it encourages someone as it has encouraged me.
Happy New Year!
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| Just because I never tire of this view, from our most recent trip to Yosemite. |
